Welcome May!! Another flip of the calendar page:) Hard to believe but also exciting! April was a good month around here and I am taking those “good vibes” with me as we start this new month. There seem to be a lot of opportunties and (new) possibilities on the horizon. My mind has been busy…in a good way. When there is too much on my plate, mentally, it seems blogging gets pushed to the periphery. It is what it is. I must be at an age when my mental plate does not hold as much as it once did. Reminds me of those paper plate commercials – too full and they collapse with just one more thought to consider, idea to expand or decision to make. Rather goes with today’s Five Minute Friday. The prompt is decision. Let’s start the timer (the idea is to freewrite for only five minutes)…..
I would think that “at a certain age,” decision making would only get easier. By now, I know what I like. I know “what works”…and what does not. I do much less people pleasing (especially as it applies to making decision) than I once did. Or, at least, I think so. And, rarely, do I need to make life-altering decisions. (In fact, those “big” decisions seem easier to make). But, truth be told, decisions can stress me. Not the weight of the decision or the complexity of a decision, per se, but I tend to get mentally fatigued simply when there are too many decisions to be made. Too many choices and/or too many disruptions to the routine . And that mental fatigue creates tension. Even anxiety.
What is an old lady to do? For awhile, I was basically abdicating many, if not most, decisions to someone else. With a “I don’t care. You decide.” attitude. That attitude works occassionally but, in reality, I do care. And so, I am working on making my own decisions. Weighing options but not overthinking. (I can seriously overthink just about anything!) I am also working on being confident with my decisions. Can I make mistakes? Choose the wrong peanut butter or wish I had ordered something else when all the dinners arrive? Of course. But that is okay.
STOP. (Goodness but that was much trickier to put into words than I imagined). All that to say, decision making evolves. Life evolves. And so am I. As I consider this, I am thinking that I could apply that to several areas of my life. This “more seasoned” stage of life. But which ones? And where should I start? Oh boy:)
Thanks for stopping by today, friends. Thanks for listening to me ramble. I appreciate it. I hope everyone enjoys this first weekend of May – hooray – and please come back by on Monday!
Boy, oh boy! We are so much alike in so many areas of our lives, Jennifer. And I needed to read what you had to say here today. Thank you so much! Love the Elisabeth Elliot quote on your sidebar as well!
So true about decision making in this stage of life. While some decisions are easier to make, others are not due to the number of choices, life’s experiences, or the overwhelming tiredness brought on my multiple decisions. I hope you have a fabulous first day in May and a wonderful weekend, Jennifer.
Jennifer, my brain has officially reached retirement age 🙂 It rebels if I try to give it too much info. I also feel like I’ve developed some sort of attention deficit as I’ve aged. My mind goes from one idea to the next and I have so many things I want to do! Happy first day of a new month!
I feel like I gradually gave up all of the decision power I had as the years went by with my late Hubby. To the point that he felt empowered to make major decisions for us both without asking me what my wishes or plans were. I am learning a lot about my self, as a direct consequence. I could run the household, but didn’t have a say over how retirement would play out – no thanks.