Who am I? A wife for almost 40 years. A mom for over 36 years. A sister and a friend, of course. Each of these help describe me. But, even more, I have been a Christian since accepting Him as my Savior when I was 12 years old and, this truth defines each area of my life. I have enjoyed some mountain top experiences but have been through some very deep valleys as well. Valleys of incredible grief and even pits of depression. However, most of my days are ordinary, routine kind of days. But in every one of my days, God has been faithful. He has walked with me whatever the day. He strengthens, comforts, encourages and blesses me with life "most abundant."

A favorite life verse: The thief cometh not, but for to steal, and to kill, and to destroy: I am come that they might have life, and that they might have it more abundantly. John 10:10

Why do I write? Though not quite as private as my dad, I am definitely my father's daughter. I find it difficult to share. And to let others in. But I do love to write. I love to put words into sentences and sentences in paragraphs that help express my thoughts. I hope my words help me share my heart. Share the life that God has given me and all that He has done for me and through me. I write with the hope of giving Him at least a bit of the glory He is due.

A verse to guide my writing: That the trial of your faith, being much more precious than of gold that perisheth, though it be tried with fire, might be found unto praise and honour and glory at the appearing of Jesus Christ. I Peter 1:7

Happy Birthday, Bud!

Posted on By jennifer

Today my Tyler would be 19 years old. 19. I find myself at a loss for words. There is such a huge difference between the almost 14 year old boy I remember so keenly and clearly and a 19 year old young man that I can only imagine….. My heart wants to linger on all I imagine I have missed – then I remember these thoughts I wrote about four years ago. I have posted them on my blog before (about two years ago) but I share them again today as I reminder to myself. Yes, there is much I can only imagine but there is also MUCH that I have been blessed with – And much I know for sure: there is no greater joy than being a mommy…and Tyler’s mommy at that! Tyler was loved. and Tyler loved his mama! This, too, I know – one day I will see Tyler again…and what a grand reunion that will be~~ The Luckiest Woman in the World So often I am tempted to concentrate on all that I will miss-
You getting a driver’s license & your first car
Your first girlfriend & that first kiss
Where would you go to college?
Who would you marry?
When you took a job, what title would you carry?
But then, I stop and remind myself
I am the luckiest woman in the world!
I was the first one to caress your downy red head
with my cheek,The very first to cradle you and sing you to sleep. It was me you called for when you skinned a knee, when your dreams were scary or your feelings hurt –
I nursed ear infections and chicken pox and figured out how a Gameboy works! I listened to your Barney songs, your choir songs and
those special country music songs! I watched you learn to ride a bike, taught you how to bake a cake and cheered too loudly with each new challenge you would take. We memorized Spelling words and memory verses and History dates to silly choruses.
When I really stop to think about it,
I am the luckiest woman in the world, because, you know -For fourteen years I was your mother and
Forever, and for always, I will be Tyler’s mom!!!

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  5. That is a beautiful heart poem. You have a gift given by God as you keep positive thoughts about the passing of your son. Thanks for sharing.

  7. Jennifer…this touched me so deeply. Just wanted to let you know that I'm thinking of and praying for you as you remember Tyler.

  10. What a precious post hon,
    So glad you have eternal perspective, it really is everything….isn't it!
    He sounded like such a wonderful young man. Happy birthday Tyler,
    can't wait to meet you when I get to heaven, cause I feel like I already know you from all the wonderful things your Mama has told us!!

    Blessings Sweetie,
    Praying for you,
    Nellie

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